change is inevitable.

Things have changed, not tolerance for people who show me they cant & will not go above & beyond for me. I don't need to be blamed & ridiculed for not doing what people assume I'm going to do, be the woman who always goes out of her way, 'just to be nice'. There are few men who have the ability to behave like gentleman anymore. And their are few people who understand what it means to be a friend.

After my big breakup w/ my ex I got a tatto that says,'Change is inevitable' because I knew that our relationship needed a change and that I needed to change. And now I'm a better person for changing & if my ex could've understood that, we'd still be friends. Sometimes looking down at my tattoo, I feel some comfort knowing that change is apart of life & I don't need to be scared. Just like when I found out I had cervical cancer. Change is constant, on going, never ending, inevitable. I fear no break-ups, no cancer, no nothing. There is always a part of myself that doesn't like when things happen & wishes they didn't but it had to.

APARTMENT?!?!

So I just got an apartment and guess what, I have NO FURNITURE! All I have is a bed and clothes. Haha, I havo plastic forks, knives, plates and cups but nothing else. It's a complete mess, I move in in two days (Friday coming up) and I don't even have PG&E set up. I was living on campus in an apartment style kinda thang but all the furniture was provided. I went on the PG&E website, and I'm so lost. Like where the hell is the link that simply says,"I want my lights turned on". That would be SO helpful, haha. With all that being said, pray for me. This weekend is going to be interesting.