oh tattoo.

Best tattoo I think I've ever seen. Way to make a bad situation funny. Love it!

soooo...hmm.

Anyone else loose just a little bit of respect for Lauren London? I just heard she gave birth to Lil Waynes baby. I actually thought it was some pro football players baby but come to find out, nope! It's Wayne's. Like I get it but still, just a little gross.

original music.

Normally I HATEEEEE Bay Arean music because its all centered around turf dancing and rapping and being just plain ignorant. But there is this one artist, his name is De'Luv & I he probably makes the BEST music in the Bay Area right now. He makes all of his music from scratch. He starts with a title of a song, then makes a beat off that title. Then once the beat is formatted, he makes the lyrics and sings the hooks. All original and all amazing. He is a talented individual. And if he doesn't make it big before he turns 22 next year, I will be utterly shocked. You should check him out & follow him on twitter if you don't already.

click [here] to listen to one of his songs
OR
click [here] to see him on twitter
OR
click [here] for all his songs on myspace

You will be blown away, I promise.

love my mama.

I've been neglecting you, I'm well aware. However it is for a good reason. I just started a second job about two weeks ago so *clap clap hooray* for me. The reason for my second job is that I could tell my mom was struggling a little bit with paying my tuition and bills for the house so I decided I would get a second job so I could work a total of 37hrs per week & pay for some of the bills she needs help with.
I've always felt like "the man of the house" because my family situation wasn't all that structured and/or stable as far as the male figure in my life was concerned. (I'm wording it this way because I'd like to keep some things private). So, in light of all this, I've always done more than what was expected of me around the house. Did most of the chores, helped my brother with school/sports stuff & always had a job and tried my best to take care of my mom because I believed she deserved shouldn't have to worry so much about everything. I wanted to take the weight off her shoulders a little bit. Ya know??
Anywho, I feel like since I've been in college&away from home, I've slacked off on trying to help my mom & I woke up one day like, damn, I need another job. So now I get paid like $300 every week and its working out good. Both jobs aren't all that easy but im making it work with my school schedule. I just hope my grades stay above a 3.4gpa. Pray for me! =/

p.s. take a look at that pic, I got a hot mama =)

hilarious!!!

just for you.

I'm a veryyyyy visual person. It's so much easier for me to learn/remember things after I see it. So thats what I want to project on my page. I want you to see or at least have an idea of what I'm talking & bitching about. I want to stimulate your occipital lobe & cerebral cortex a little bit. This is for all of my visual people out there.. Hope you like it.

deep breath.

Rosario Dawson =)
*aow aow*

all day.

I swear this is how I've been feeling all day. Everything in my room keeps hiding from me today! Trid to leave for class, couldn't find my keys. They were behind my bed, how? I have no clue. Came back from class, wanted to chill & watch some tv, where's my remote?? In a drawer. And I'm pretty sure if I had any puzzles, some pieces would end up in a purse or some crap like that.

cute kid!

Even though I have no idea what my kids will come out looking like, I sure as hell hope they're as cute as Halle Berry's daughter Nala!!!! Just look at her, beautiful little girl.

make your own

Since fresh. year of college, it seems as if my ca$h flow has been less & less. SO in my time of need, I decided that I was going to start making my own dresses instead of paying upwards of $40 for somethingin I'm probably only going to wear a couple times. So far, I've made a skirt and four dresses. All good so far! It's all something hella ordinary that you might see at forever 21 & the stitching is amazing to the naked eye, just don't look hella close. haha. But it's nothing I want to take further than my own personal wardrobe. I don't want to make dresses for people & get paid, nah. I just want to look cute for cheap.So, I thought this dress made out of newspaper was a great representation of what I'm talking about. Although, my dresses aren't made out of paper, just vintage clothes.

fyi.

"The ability to be happy is nothing other than the ability to come to terms with how things change"

-goodnight

entertainment.

This is pretty neat-o. After watching it for a while, kinda suprises me that its actuallly all a collection of wall art. Still, pretty sweet.

pretty ironic.

Being that I'm going into the medical field and have wanted to be a doctor all my life, this is crazy!!! I personally don't know if I could service someone who obviously hated me. Not for who I am but for the color of my skin. But then again as a doctor, you can't judge people for what they believe, you just need to treat their illnesses. Maybe this is unconsciously one of the reasons why I want to work with babies and not with adults. Adults are SO opinionated and ignorant sometimes as this picture proves! But I do have mad respect for these nurses. They really showed some mercy & kindness by even working on this guy, regardless if he ended up surviving or not. I can't honestly say that I would be able to do the same. Bravo ladies.

malfunction.

This is one of the reasons why I hate computers & electronics in general. I get these type of pop ups ALL the time on my computer. Why??? HELL, I don't know! Can you tell me?? What does this pop up even mean? Why are computers so complex? I just need to type papers, go on the internet, skype, save files & watch movies. I barely have an ipod so itunes? Don't need it. Oh and it can't be slow, I need that high speed internet. Now find me a computer like that!

you got a fetus too?

Now is it just me or does it seem like A LOT of people are popping out kids recently? Since I work at a mall I suppose I see the bulk of them BUT I've been noticing people's twitter&facebook statuses slowly change from 'party party party!' to 'gotta go get some diapers, brb'.. WHAT?? I'm only 20yrs old & some of my graduating classmates are working on their 2nd baby. I DONT GET IT! Was Walgreens all out of your Trojan Ecstacy's? Or maybe you just got bored one day & thought to yourself, 'HEY! Why don't I get pregnant?' Hahaha, I have no idea. Babies are a beautiful thing & if your currently pregnant, SCORE! I'm just wondering why there are so many fetus's roaming around recently.

youGOboy!

My mother has worked for the Coca-Cola Company for about 20years now & I think she'd be proud to know that at least someone really really enjoys a cold coke.=/

HIV/AIDS

I know I'm always joking and playing around but in reality, I have always wanted to be a doctor (Neonatologist) & that's the only reason why I'm in school. I want to help babies live long lives. So I'm always in the news looking for interesting medical stories&articles. I feel as if a lot of people are so oblivious to the fact that it is really really easy to catch HIV now. Just going raw ONE TIME can mess up your entire life. Thats being really extreme but you need to get tested regularly (every 4-6mnths) depending on how many partners you bump&grind with.

What I'm sure most of you didn't know is that even with the life-streatching miracle HIV meds that the doctors give you, they are now starting to fail us. A group of Malawians who were born w/ HIV & have been treated since birth are now in their late 20's suffering because the same medicine (antiretroviral therapy) that is suppost to save their life is now failing (a high-level nucleoside reverse transcriptase inhibitor first-line resistance among Malawians). Stanford University (Go Cardinals) is doing a TON of research on how to change certain dosages and maybe mix & match different drugs but its all undergoing testing.

This type of stuff really irritates me because by using condoms, the rate of infections would have decreased by the millions. Its just sad knowing that people have to suffer and the things that they were hoping to save their life, are turning against their own bodies. I hope the scientists & doctors figure something out. If there are any new updates, I'll let ya'll know =) Thanks for reading.

the child in me.

Just like almost everyone else in this world, I really like Family Guy. Peter is a dummy and Lois is a slut. Stewie is always trying to kill Lois w/ that cute little english accent (wish I had one) & then the other characters are blah. (Chris & Meg).
But my ALL TIME FAVORITE cartoon is CHOWDER!! Yes, Chowder & if you don't watch it, you should. It's hilarious. (Chowder is the one in the purple hat) It comes on the cartoon network all the time & I promise, you'll love it.

i admit.

I'm not original. Heck, it says im not original in the about me section. I'm a combination of white girl meets oakland w/ a little bit of road rage & sour patch kids(sour then sweet). But regardless of putting myself into a certain category of people, I'd rather just say I'm a woman. Yes, I don't pay for all of my bills because my mother has a good job but I do pay for two of them & I do feel like being a full time student and working part time to pay my little bills is a big deal. I work hard for the grades I get and I work hard for the money I get.

I remember my last relationship, totally head over heels in full blown love/lust alla that. Lasted for like 4 years on & off. Amazing man but our problems w/ one another couldn't be solved & we both gave up trying to make it work after a while. ANYWHO, I remember always trying to be the woman HE needed me to be, not the woman I wanted to be. Now that we've been apart for a little over a year, I've finally narrowed down who I want to be & how I want to live my life regardless of who I'm in a relationship with. Finally I let go of the irrational thinking & now take time to react. I leave lying to the little girls & actually learn from the mistakes I do make now (& have made). Now I actually feel like I'm capable of being the woman I want to be while being the woman 'my man' needs me to be as well. And I'm crazy proud of myself.

Just had to get that off my chest.=)