i admit.

I'm not original. Heck, it says im not original in the about me section. I'm a combination of white girl meets oakland w/ a little bit of road rage & sour patch kids(sour then sweet). But regardless of putting myself into a certain category of people, I'd rather just say I'm a woman. Yes, I don't pay for all of my bills because my mother has a good job but I do pay for two of them & I do feel like being a full time student and working part time to pay my little bills is a big deal. I work hard for the grades I get and I work hard for the money I get.

I remember my last relationship, totally head over heels in full blown love/lust alla that. Lasted for like 4 years on & off. Amazing man but our problems w/ one another couldn't be solved & we both gave up trying to make it work after a while. ANYWHO, I remember always trying to be the woman HE needed me to be, not the woman I wanted to be. Now that we've been apart for a little over a year, I've finally narrowed down who I want to be & how I want to live my life regardless of who I'm in a relationship with. Finally I let go of the irrational thinking & now take time to react. I leave lying to the little girls & actually learn from the mistakes I do make now (& have made). Now I actually feel like I'm capable of being the woman I want to be while being the woman 'my man' needs me to be as well. And I'm crazy proud of myself.

Just had to get that off my chest.=)